Communication results are out. E. One freaking E. Even though i study, i got E. Yvette didn't study and she got a B+. Sigh. Sometimes i think deep within me, study so hard, still fail or do so-so only. Classmates always say, 'Alex always sleep in class. Don't contribute' It's not i don't want to, it's just that, my body feels tired after all the working and stuff. I didn't bother to explain to anyone as childish people in my class will say those lanjiao wei, which i totally dislike. If you guys think it is so easy to be independant, go ahead, no one is stopping you. All of you have pocket money from your parents, no need work, carefree life, everyday after school hang out together. While i just work non-stop, you guys really think i don't want to stop? You think i'm not tired? I AM! i seriously am. But, thinking of everything i have to contribute, from phone bills, laptop installments, transport fees, own pocket money. Which sums up to >400SGD. If i don't work, how am i going to get all this money? My family financial is not really good, that's why i opted to be independant, to relieve my parents stress of earning more money to feed me and my elder brother. Is there anything wrong? If there is anything wrong, tell me. i will reason it out with you. Trust me, being independant is tiring but will let you learn more things in life.
I gave it a serious thought, if i have to retain year 1 or go back for year 4, i will quit school. I will enlist into army earlier, after coming out of army, i will maybe go into starting my own business, i don't know. Life is unpredictable, but nevertheless, i want to go through poly smoothly like what i had in my primary school and secondary school. i don't want to waste anymore time.
I just hope, OB grade will make me happier, a C+ will do, i expect nothing much.
Life Sucks When You're Down.
