Sorry bestie for shouting at you, i didn't mean it. Real sorry.

Thinking back, i was independent on 1st december. 1 year later, my body is tired, tired till an extent that i never imagined myself to be. My teenage years are shortlived, sec1 to sec4 after that i'm living a life of an adult. Sometimes, i really want to quit school and work full time. But education is important in Singapore. What to do? Continue with it, till one day i die of exhaustion or i die of old age. I am jealous, jealous of every fucking teenager whose parents give them pocket money. One fact is i'm relieved to see my parents' burden lessen. It is showing that what i'm doing is actually helping them.

In front of people, i'm a bubbly teenager who takes everything to his stride. Balancing both work and studies equally. WRONG! It's the exact opposite. I don't feel happy at all, in fact, i'm tired. Too tired to even feel happy. Always excited for pay day, but now, i don't even feel the excitement when month end is coming. When i'm down, i have only myself to confide. Thinking about everything. My only pillar of strength is FAMILY. This group of people is what i'm pushing myself to the max i can. I don't care whether i fall down, cause because of them, i will stand up and walk again. Families like, Parents, Siblings, AhMa, AhYi Kor and AhQi Kor. For them i am pushing myself to the limit. Friends are also there for me too, i appreciate it alot. Thanks.

I don't know how much longer i can hold on, mood swings come frequently, waking up for school late. i just hope 3 years pass in a flash. JY Shuofeng, you can do it!